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Monday, 16 February 2009

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     Baby, your everything i want & everything i ever needed.

    I think of you - Taj Jackson <3

     

    I was suppose to give you these letters while you were away. but i didnt get the chance to, since i couldnt get on a computer. so im just gonna add all three letters in this one message. i'll try to keep this short and simple, but i doubt it will happen. anyways, i hope you like it..

    Babe, thankyou for believing in me.. believing in us.
    every single word, sentence, phrase, etc i meant it. well besides the gay and homo part, lol. but your such a big part of my life now. im amazed how just one guy in only a few months has effected me this way. but out of everyone i've known, im glad your the one who has that affect on me. i feel like the most happiest girl, since you became a part of my life. and i havent been this happy cause of someone in such a long time. i wake up thinking of you and i go to bed with a smile on my face all because of you. people think what im doing is unbelievable and unreal, especially how things are between us. cause i could be giving other guys a chance, but they dont make me as happy as you do. i dont get this unexplainable feeling with anyone else, but you. im pretty much taken by you, im all yours.. no one may realize or understand it, but i truly love you.. for real. i could careless about how people think of us, as long as its just you and me. second, thankyou for accepting me as "babe/baby." we started calling each other by our names, then friendboy&friendgirl, and now this. we only got close for a short amount of time, but doesnt it feel like forever already? we got so close, so fast. and im truly happy we did. before, my mind told me to drop everything i was feeling, but my heart told me not to give up, not to let go. im glad i didnt give up, i never imagined we would get this far. before all this happened, i told myself that all we'll ever be is just friends. i tried to believe that, but i just couldnt. i didnt want to. i know were not "official" and theres a chance that it probably will stay that way. but im fine with it. im happy and i enjoy how things are now. if that ever happens no need on rushing it. lets just take things slow and easy. its just a title, nothing more. i mean yeah im single, and other losers may try to get a chance with me. but they cant, it wont happen. cause my heart is already taken by you. you have my heart. no one can take your place, they cant replace you. cause i choose you over anyone. no matter what gets in our way of being together, what tries to stop us. we'll get through it. we can make it through anything.. together. im never gonna let you go. i belong with you. lastly, thankyou for just being yourself with me. being ourselves got us where we are today and i'd honestly dont know where i'd be without you. you know how to cheer me up. just talking to you always makes my day. i have so much respect for you and i can trust you. i wouldnt trade you for anything. baby, your priceless! your irreplaceable. my happiness started cause of you. it began on nine twenty three. some of my happiest moments wouldnt be complete without you here by my side. your the reason for all the memories we built with each other. i dont remember days, i remember every single moment. so many unforgettable memories with you. i hope these letters show how truly greatful i am to have someone like you. how much i appreciate and love you. i cant thankyou enough. you move and change me in so many ways. the closer i get to you, the more you make me see that i truly love you. if theres ever a day you dont like how you are, see yourself through my eyes. cause to me your just perfect. as long as you love me, i'll always be here. i'll always be yours.

    <3iloveyou.

    P.S. forever&always
     
     
     
     

Sunday, 10 August 2008

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    Give me the strength to

    throw your heart away.

    So we go on and on, on this merry go round. trying to chase a love that can never be found. time to say goodbye and step off of it now. its over

    August10, today could of been our 6months together. thats crazy, to bad it couldnt work out between us though.. i wish it did. and yeah i know its basically my fault that everything messed up. i let it happen. and i regret everything i did that made me lose you. im sorry for my uncertainty and how i let him take me away. we both ended up disappointing eachother in some way though. but nothing we could do about it now. like you said its okaay, its over. your happily taken, and im single. from now on im just gonna look at you and smile :] im thankful i was able to have a chance to be with you and still be friends after everything that happened.

    Happy what could of been our 6 months.

     

     

     

    February 10, 2009

    I was really shocked that you texted me "Happy February 10 ! Thought i'd be randomm." Those were the exact words you said. I never expected you to say anything to me, especially since this day could of been our one year. We both wished it would last this long, or even half a year. But it didnt, it lasted for only three months. But im over it already, we both got hurt a lot after everything that happened. We both knew things just werent gonna work out between us. Like i guess you still have feelings for me, and you miss me. But still, you got to learn to let go eventually. I dont want you to hold on to me for over two years like you did with my cousin. You'll miss many oppurtunities to be with other girls. Like yeah, i admit i do miss talking to you. Things change, and we go to different directions. But im sorry we couldnt last this long. Those three months we had together were pretty good, so thanks for those memories i wont forget.

     

     

Sunday, 27 July 2008

  • Love; something we all need a little of.


    First and foremost comes the ever elusive topic of Love.

    Love is, literally, many things. Which is why relationships tend break apart so easily. Because Love is vague. To one person, Love can be shown as silent friendship between lovers. To another person, Love can be shown as passionate and spur-of-the-moment. To one person, Love can entitle a steady relationship. To another, Love can entitle hugs and kisses, but no real ties. To one person, Love is shown through flowers and material gifts. To another person, Love is shown through acts of kindness and sentimental phrases.

    In short, Love is different for all people. You can't just go into a relationship and say "I Love You" and expect to get far. Because for one thing, you're probably moving a bit too fast. And for another, your definition of Love and the other person's definition of Love are probably two different things. Which will definitely lead to problems when you get to the "I thought you said you Loved me" fight.

    So my advice would be, simply, to learn. Find out what Love is to you. Is it this? Or is that? Or do you even believe in Love? Is it just a word we humans use to express this undefinable emotion that flits through our figurative hearts? Or is it something you truly believe in? So find out what Love is to you. And find out what your significant other's Love means to him or her. That way, when you say. "I Love you" and the other person says, "I Love you, too." you know exactly what that means.


    Secondly, are the "Rules".

    I hear that word a lot when guys talk about themselves in a relationship. And the same goes for girls. There's a lot of "he should do this when i do that because that will show me this" or "she should say this i say that because that way she will make him feel like this". And it all sounds really overdone to me. Because to me, a relationship should not operate in a cause-and-effect style. It should run smoothly and simultaneously with all of its factors.
    There shouldn't be rules in a relationship, there should be compromise. If he wants to pay for the food then she should say, "If you pay this time, then you have to let me pay for something next time." And he should say, "Okay. Sounds fair." At least then you'll know there will definitely be another next time
    And if she wants to hang with her friends all day instead of with him, then he should say, "Only if we get a day to ourselves sometime soon." and she should say, "Okay, then."
    A relationship's not supposed to be about interpreting the signs so that the other can react appropriately, cause then everything's just too...fake. You don't get shortcuts in the intruction manual. You have to learn those on your own.


    Next up on the list, would be S P A C E.


    All i can really say about this is: Don't be clingy. Don't be nosy. Don't be intrusve.
    A lot of people who have been in a long relationship wish they could relive the first several weeks of that realtionship, when everything was so new and exciting.
    When those butterflies still flittered in the stomach.
    You want that feeling back? Then don't always be with your boyfriend or girlfriend. if you're constantly with that person, the feeling fades faster. but if you're not always with that person, you'll always have something to look forward to.
    It's like being addicted, but healthier and without physically painful repercussions. And no withdrawal.
    And space is just healthy. whn you're with someone, realize that YES-they did have a life before you came along. They had other friends, other agendas, other goals to fulfill.
    Let them live. They'll appreciate you more for understanding.
    And realize that space helps you remember. It helps you put you back in the situations you were in before you met that other person. And that way, you'll always know who you really are.
    There is no feeling as hollow and degrading as the one when you come out of a three and a half year relationship and go "...shit, who the hell was i before this person?".
    So give your partner some space. and if you need to force it on them, then do it. it's healthy. And it'll keep you wanting that other person with the same intensity as the first day you two got together.
    And take some space for yourself. Hang out with your friends. have a day for yourself. Rediscover you hobbies. Write down your personal goals.

    Have a Life. It's not a illegal.

     

    Jessica Bautista wrote this, its really good.i hope you enjoyed it :]

     

  • Being Single.

    The Art of Contentment. For most of us, being single will be more of a phase than a final destination. This is the best place to practice the art of contentment. Someday, I'm sure most of us will fall in love and get married. But the thing is, love will always be tested.

    Someone more handsome, beautiful, more charming, richer, funnier, sweeter would come along. If you have not practiced the art of contentment as a single person, chances are you would be tempted to want that and not cherish your chosen one. Practicing the Art of Contentment as a single person means that you take what life gives you, good or bad, and you're willing to see it through. It means you don't walk away everytime things get tough, because it builds in you patience, perseverance, understanding and a hundred different virtues that people in a hurry will never have to cherish.

    Being single means you would find how it feels to be alone thus, allowing you to cherish every moment you spend with your chosen one. The art of contentment means you wouldn't mind if life had to make you wait for so long to find the love of your life, because you know that the waiting would only make the finding the love of your life much sweeter.

    Being single is a time of your life when you can get to know yourself better. You can pursue different interest and passions without having to ask another person's approval. It is a phase when you can keep focus on other things, discover your potentials and talents, and see yourself become more of the person you expect to be.

    Allow yourself to surprise you. Stop wasting precious energy trying to figure out why you're still romantically unattached. It's all in the mind. Take the time to go see your friends, spend time with your family, do charity work and you will realize that you are not, and never for one moment, was alone.

    Try to get to know yourself first before you try to get to know other people. To be truly loved, means to be known and accepted for who you are. How do you expect other people to know you and to love you, when you don't know who and what you really are? Sometimes the dilemmas we face are not between what is absolutely bad and absolutely good. Sometimes, it's between what is good and best.

    Treat this stage of your life as a phase to evaluate who is good for you and who is best for you. Sometimes, you won't hear music, or feel magic to know who's best for you. The heart just knows and it doesn't need any romantically charged scenario to decide on the matter. Trust in your heart, and trust that time will eventually lead you to, not to the perfect partner, but to the most suitable partner for you. Being single is a phase of life that we need to be thankful for, because being single means our hearts have yet to choose the best one for us.

    Take your time, the world will wait. Being married doesn't guarantee that it will make your life happy. It doesn't guarantee anything at all. Sometimes, it only brings two miserable people together only to make their life even more miserable. Without the right intention, the emotional maturity, financial security and of course, unwavering love, you're better off unattached.

    Living Life. Don't put your life on hold for Mr. and Mrs. Right, but don't let it waste away with Mr. or Mrs. Wrong. Life is about things that you do and happen to you everyday. It's not about the things that could have happened but never did, or things that you think would happen in the future. Live life now. Live it to the fullest and stop beating yourself up, trying to be perfect on a Saturday night date. Allow life to surprise you with it's most wonderful blessings.

     

    I give credit to whoever wrote this, its pretty amazing. (: thanks pinsan for showing me it.

     

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